I want to quit lifting.
There, I said it.
I'm sick of it. I've lost motivation and I don't know how to get it back. I'm desperate to get it back. I've even toyed with the idea of doing bodybuilding again because I had so much motivation back then. Maybe I want the discipline I used to have but I don't want to put the work in. Am I lazy or do I just have different interests now? I don't know.
I do know that unlike most people I feel better physically when I don't work out. I can actually get up in the morning for work without it being a huge struggle. I enjoy that. Mentally though, I feel so much better when I do work out. I feel like I've accomplished something when I go to the gym and have a good weights session followed by a bit of heart pumping cardio.
One reason why I don't want to quit is because I've set myself some pretty big goals. I wouldn't mind quitting lifting after I've met these goals but I would feel like a failure if I didn't reach these goals before I quit.
I have aimed to bench press 100kg raw for nearly two years now. I've also set myself the goal of breaking the current Commonwealth record for the deadlift which at the moment is 190kg. None of these goals can be reached if I sit on my ass. They also cannot be reached if I go to the gym maybe once a week. They require some commitment. Probably more than "some" commitment, more like a lot of commitment.
I don't know what to do. I feel like I need a break for a month or two (at least) but I don't want to take one because if I do take a break my strength will dwindle and I don't want to spend a lot of time building my strength up. I feel like I'm stuck! I've thought about just sucking it up and making myself go to the gym but when it comes down to it I REALLY don't want to go.
These are my thoughts. Do you have any thoughts or words of encouragement or wisdom? Help!